◀ Tuesday, August 02, 2011
I keep telling myself that this is not worth it. What he has put me through for the past 24, all the hurt and pain, that he's not worth it. So I don't know why I keep trying and trying to get to him on the phone when it's so obvious he's not going to pick up. I think I must have made at least 200 calls to him within the last six hours (which is the most I've ever called anyone). Noone has ever hurt me so damn much. Noone has ever made me feel so insignificant, so unappreciated. I want to sleep this hurt away, I want to sleep and never wake up. I don't want to feel so much pain anymore. I don't want to feel a thing anymore.