2 years 9 months 15 days ◀ Wednesday, July 03, 2013
We ended things today. I guess no matter how much I put in, how much I tried to convince him to come back, he just doesn't feel the same for me anymore. And I'm not going to lie, it hurts like a fucking bitch. I can spend the next few weeks crying but I'll try not to. There'll probably be a few days when I'll break down completely, but I'll be fine. Eventually. I'll be fine.
For the past three years, I loved him with all my heart. He broke me so many times, but I never stopped loving him. And I'll never stop. I'll always love him. Like what everyone says, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. If Linus and I are actually meant to be together, I'm sure we'll find our way back to each other. Again. But for now, it'll just be this way. I'll move on and hopefully, find someone else who will prove to me that he deserves my love. And I'll give my all to him, like I always do.
Linus and I had three really great years together, I won't deny any of that despite the pain I'm feeling now. He has done so much for me over the years, and me for him. From lying on the white beaches in Tioman, to walking along the streets of Melbourne. We've shared some amazing experiences over the years. We've caught a lot of OUR favourite bands together, both in Singapore and in Australia. A Day To Remember, Deaf Havana, While She Sleeps, Pierce the Veil, Blink 182, BMTH, Jack's Mannequin, The Amity Affliction, All Time Low, Your Demise, The Ghost Inside, and so many others :) I'll always remember both of us getting way too high at the Motion City Soundtrack sideshow earlier this year. But no matter how high or drunk I always got, I felt safe with Linus. He has held my hair back way too often while I puked my guts out. He has dealt with my stupid emotions and drunk antics way too many times. I was such a mess, I think I'll always be one.
Still. Thank you, kid, for shaping me to be who I am today. You accepted me, my flaws, my character, my overbearing personality and you stuck with me throughout the years. I hope I made you a better person. I'll never forget you. Keep safe. Till then xx